<pull-quote>but no name, right?<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>that’s correct. the night before you posted was actually the first time we began tossing out ideas. we found four or so that we didn’t hate. how long does one have after delivery before a name has to be chosen?<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>It's America, bro. You'd be surprised how long you can drag that out. Leave Untitled on the album track until you feel inspired.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Took professional photographs with her<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>sarah says she’s heard of this. she pointed me to an atlantic article from earlier this year that follows a photographer who’s made a career out of the practice. evidently, most of the couples who do not get photos taken later end up regretting their decision--this from sarah; i couldn't read it.<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Yep. I can't think of a scenario where the human need for grief is more stark, on more tender, absurd, and tragic display.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>just short of life-denying<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>I imagine they feel that to forget is to betray. To further abandon Riley to the shadows.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>This feels right. Honestly, the impulse to remember in such uncompromising fashion--the capacity to--exists in me, as well. Really and truly: there, but for the grace of God, go I.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>yourself<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Agreed. Rachel and I did the same with sex and name. Only four years after Abram was born did I risk texting you last night, Wuck, the three other names I'd held in my heart were we to have a boy. Four years of holding those cards close. Murph is wise to advise the same. We are talking hope and identity at its highest stakes.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>rehearse<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>The opposite of me, which is part of why I love you.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Do you two know of my affinity for trees?<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Nope.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>"Abram Tossing His First Fastballs beneath a Magnolia in Bloom" (oil, 2020)<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>the spindly trees<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>i think of bedford in williamsburg when i first moved to the city versus bedford now. sure, there’re more store fronts and more foot traffic, but the trees make it a neighborhood.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>Absolutely. What a wonderful neighborhood. I recall fondly those two late-night walks I took to the deli during your wedding week.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>that was clinton hill<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>I see that now, sandwiched between Bed-Stuy and Fort Greene. Every affluent street looks like the one the Huxtables lived on in The Cosby Show. Stately, classic. In a different life!<p-comment>
<p-comment>Also, so many neighborhoods in Brooklyn! Some big, some small. What are the rules? Population? Landmarks? I bet there are some good books on the subject.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>which ones are the fucking quietest, that’s what i want to know.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>wishing you had Bono’s voice<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>ouch. can’t i ever just be cool?<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Tom’s old street<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>of what variety was the tree in tom's backyard? tom and i had the annual job of lopping off its barren vertical branches in the fall, lest any of them interfered with fred’s ham radio tower. when we were younger we’d play swords with them. we’d get thirsty, and what would tom bring me? one of fred’s tiny perrier bottles. always perrier for fred. perrier and talk radio. no music in the car and no still water in the house. and now look at me, with my seltzer maker and my podcasts.<p-comment>
<p-comment>returning home from college, after driving around with tom--smoking dope and getting our del taco number six combos: two hard shells and a quesadilla, no green sauce--we'd return to the garage in the back. we wouldn’t go in the house, just straight up the driveway to the garage, past the dark tree in the shadowy backyard.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>Here we go round the Mulberry.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>i asked tom the other day and he further specified: a fruitless mulberry.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Loma Sola<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>the hell you doing way over on loma sola? and it does indeed. they’re most familiar to me from the angled sections of sidewalk, broken from the giant roots, and the variety of ways such sections would be mended, making for memorable scooter or rollerblading obstacles.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Albright<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Fuck Albright. It was literally and visibly shady, my entire childhood, this street just next to ours. Coolcrest Ave forever.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>like a Braeburn apple<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Talk to me, buddy.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>Like, about Braeburn apples? It's a good eating apple--firm, sweet. I wouldn't use it in a pie, but it would make decent apple fritters.<p-comment>
<p-comment>Neither of you are ever in town with time to spare during early fall, but if you were, we could take a trip up to Oak Glen to eat the heirloom apples one cannot find in a supermarket: Winesap, Vasquez, Sierra Beauty, Arkansas Black, Hoover!<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Spike balls<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>i remember pat’s comment when we were parked outside tom’s house one night. i believe the prank at the time was tying fishing line to his window screen and then tugging on it from the car to pester him and katie on the other side. your block smells like cum, tom! this from the spike balls, no?.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>You're thinking of the Callery Pear, maybe, another tree found all over south Upland. It was Pat's street below UHS that smelled most rankly of semen. "Nut trees, " he called them.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>Sycamore<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>That was the first tree name I ever learned. I went to kindergarden at Sycamore Elementary. Other elementary schools in Upland: Magnolia, Valencia. In third grade Pepper Tree opened a block from my house, on 18th, with still-wet sod on the fields and rooms that smelled of wet paint for two years. My mother, who both taught Elementary and worked for the Upland Chamber of Commerce, often told me Upland was an official City of Trees in America.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>Certainly, the pepper tree is Upland's claim to fame. You two have been around the world. Ever seen anything comparable to Euclid Avenue?<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>I find great pleasure, by the way, in listing Upland's elementary schools from memory, sometimes even plotting them on an improvised napkin map for interested others.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>i’d watch the construction of that map.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>I'd happily construct it.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>planting a tree in remembrance of my dead father not two years later<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>i don’t know that this tree has been pointed out to me.<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>I've been to that park almost every winter break since high school. I've quietly marveled at the tree that hovers over the ground like a titanic hammock, but feared pointing it out, lest I hear, once again: "Hoke you're such a fag." You, Murph, have nary signaled in any of these trees' directions. More often you're just sipping on a Polar Pop and barking the group into coherence for some fence-climbing en route to playground handball. Even when we played kickball just months ago--a balmy December 30th--it was Tom who pointed out a thin tree on a mound, as "Murph's Dad's tree." I looked to you to see if he was goofing. I'd never heard of this. You said nothing. Now to read this loving essay on the trees all around our shared memories. Dizzying.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>When I snip the twine, the tree remains upright<pull-quote>
<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Here's to Baby Webber and a successful snip this August.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>butter-fried sourdough from The Pantry<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>shit yeah<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>rehearse<pull-quote>
<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>I've often tried to imagine all those nights Andy spent at your house during The Diviners sophomore year. In my mind it's a non-stop rollercoaster of hellbent rehearsing and hysterical grab-ass.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>yeah. hard to imagine having the ability to know how to rehearse scene work at that age, aside blocking and memorization.<p-comment>
<p-comment>he used to knock on my door in the morning. i’d answer, and his bare ass would be in the air, cheeks spread, and he’d fart. repulsive stuff.<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>This joy will return, Wuck, with your child. Remember to laugh and chase the kid as you would Andy, not just to scold and wipe the (probably) unclean little culo.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>rehearse<pull-quote>
<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>I've often tried to imagine all those nights Andy spent at your house during The Diviners sophomore year. In my mind it's a non-stop rollercoaster of hellbent rehearsing and hysterical grab-ass.<p-comment>
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<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>yeah. hard to imagine having the ability to know how to rehearse scene work at that age, aside blocking and memorization.<p-comment>
<p-comment>he used to knock on my door in the morning. i’d answer, and his bare ass would be in the air, cheeks spread, and he’d fart. repulsive stuff.<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>This joy will return, Wuck, with your child. Remember to laugh and chase the kid as you would Andy, not just to scold and wipe the (probably) unclean little culo.<p-comment>
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<pull-quote>like to share<pull-quote>
<avatar-wuck><avatar-wuck><author-name>Wuck<author-name>
<p-comment>this thought has been bouncing around in my mind since you mentioned it earlier. i'm thinking of the variety of ways sharing can be defined, instances when sharing is appreciated and when it’s not.<p-comment>
<p-comment>what year did we go to universal studios for tom's birthday, murph? remember that backdraft show? this was before i'd met you, hoke. it was murph, me, tom, adam shear, i believe; and tom's father, of course.<p-comment>
<p-comment>i loved that backdraft shit so goddamn much--the fire, the explosions, the colapsing set! i told my parents about it again and again when i got home. i had the sense that once was enough and that any time i wanted to stop sharing and go practice my piano would be most welcome. still, i retold.<p-comment>
<p-comment>by contrast and more recently, i was home over the holidays and gave my parents a casual performance of the goldberg, pausing between variations to describe various elements of the composition and moments i found particularly impressive. this, i felt, was most welcome.<p-comment>
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<avatar-hoke><avatar-hoke><author-name>Hoke<author-name>
<p-comment>Your parents sat down and happily listened to you play Bach's Goldberg variations, with extended curation between pieces? I guess I would too if Abram came home from his busy life in 35 years and wanted to share something with me. And Bach is definitely better than a treatise on Picachu.<p-comment>
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<avatar-murph><avatar-murph><author-name>Murph<author-name>
<p-comment>7th grade<p-comment>
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